To Be Met

 Tonight the longest of the year, the past whispers, even as a tombstone settles gently on the grave of long buried dreams, so long ago even what ifs fail to rear their ugly heads.  A soft smile tugs with the  memories.  Stars and the moon and empty country roads.  Laughter dancing on the wind.  Wishes and dreams and a love that would span decades bloomed.  I remember, and I am profoundly grateful for those days.  That beginning would eventually evolve and forge a bond that would see us through unimagined battlefields that drew blood, sweat, and tears, yet somehow within all that hardship...we each continued to find pieces of ourselves.

My heart weeps with sheer joy and relief at tomorrow's new beginning.  Feeling Fate's guiding hand and seeing Destiny manifest leaves me breathless with wonder.  The fit is so natural and right.  Finally, the truth that was always so clear to me is seen.  It was all meant to be.  ")

Yet a part of me is...lost.  As The Universe's pattern clearly falls into place, the pillars that once grounded me home shift under my feet, and my soul understands that my future will no longer be in the safe, comforting shadow of what I once knew.  Maybe if I had at least a clue of what direction lies before me, I wouldn't feel so fucking alone in this world.  But I don't, and I do.  

As I look back and see a girl in vastly different world yet the same pure heart and soul despite the many triumphs and failures, I wonder...will The Universe's path for me even offer me a different ending?  I don't know.  I'm simply trying desperately to have faith and believe that I too will someday somewhere be met with open arms.
~Kat

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